Snapshots of Dementia: What You Don't See

Snapshots of Dementia: What You Don't See
Saturday, July 8, 2023 by Marti

Categories: Caregivers

Marriage to someone who is living with dementia has taught me lots of things, many of which I’ve shared on this forum. I’ve learned about the disease, about the changing needs of people LWD, and about myself.

I’ve also learned that, all along the way, there’s a lot those not in this situation don’t see—even when they spend time with someone LWD. This is true not because anyone is trying to hide or have secrets but simply because what we observe in a few minutes—or even a few hours—of anyone else’s life, LWD or otherwise, never gives us the whole picture.

Even my snapshots of dementia, as transparent as I seek to be, are just that: snapshots, small glimpses, and usually from my own perspective. Although I’ve tried to give Tom’s perspective a time or two, that’s getting more and more difficult to share.

Here, then, are some glimpses of what you do and don’t see (or would and wouldn’t see, if it were possible) when you see Tom and me:

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom and Marti arriving at church, medical appointment, or another scheduled outing.

WHAT YOU DON’T: The time it takes to get ready to leave. This includes last-minute bathroom trips or changes of clothes if he has spilled something along with finding sunglasses, reading glasses, sweater, and other necessary but often-misplaced items as well as (often) going back to close whichever door he exits and forgets to close.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom smiling and nodding, enjoying others’ company.

WHAT YOU DON’T: Tom recalling fewer names and participating less and less in discussions because he can’t come up with quick responses.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom eating an unusually heavy meal, often with dessert.

WHAT YOU DON’T: Tom’s lack of appetite control; he can eat a huge amount or very little without realizing what he’s doing or feeling either hungry or full.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom adding excessive amounts of salt, pepper, or both to his food.

WHAT YOU DON’T: Tom’s dementia has stolen his sense of smell, which has diminished his sense of taste. As his dementia worsens, this seems to be worsening too.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom wearing a sweater, long sleeves, and long pants even when temperatures are in the eighties or nineties.

WHAT YOU DON’T: Tom’s brain doesn’t process temperature well, and he is often cold. We keep a blanket in the car and a cardigan in the pouch on his walker to try to combat this problem.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom following behind me with his walker.

WHAT YOU DON’T: Him becoming nervous and unsure where to go when I’m not in front of him. I used to stay behind to keep an eye on him, but now, that upsets him, so I either walk beside (when we have room) or directly in front of him and turn around often to check on him.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Beautiful photos of Tom smiling with our family, especially our grandchildren.

WHAT YOU DON’T: The many times where he stares blankly into space or hyperfocuses on his iPad, ignoring everyone around him.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom continuing to sing in the adult and senior adult choirs.

WHAT YOU DON’T: Him landing on the wrong page in his choir music or holding out a note too long (something he never would have done pre-dementia); how exhausted but happy he is after these activities.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom’s continued good sense of humor and ability to make others laugh; exaggerated physical movements for this purpose.

WHAT YOU DON’T: His repetition of funny lines he has said through the years; his exaggerated use of physical humor increasing as his ability to process declines.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom remaining quiet more and more while others talk.

WHAT YOU DON’T: How he thanks me nearly every day for taking care of him and thanks God in his prayers for his wife and family.

WHAT YOU DO SEE: Tom delighting in singing a long, dramatic version of “Happy Birthday” at church whenever he finds out it’s someone’s birthday.

WHAT YOU DON’T: Him forgetting it was my birthday although he had just gone with our daughter to buy a gift the day before. Choosing a beautiful card but forgetting to sign it. Selecting a gift very similar to what he gave me two years ago because he was sure I would love it. (I did—but mostly because he wanted to get me something, which doesn't often happen, and chose it himself.)

Of course, there are many others aspects of LWD that you don’t see, nor do you need to. Our journey together has taught me that, although I may have similar experiences to someone else, I never fully know their story because it is just that: their story.

If your story includes a loved one or someone else you know who is LWD, what don’t we see? Do we need to see or hear something that would help others to help you? Feel free to share in the comments below or on social media. Our story matters—and so does yours.

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